For Justin.

This is the hardest blog I've ever had to write. Just thinking about Justin being alone rips out my heart. I love him so much, in so many different ways. You can't go through everything that we have been through and not come out loving someone. It kills me that he is so sad that he had to go back to the way things were a few years ago.
With that being said, I'll do anything for you, kid. I love you to the moon and back down to the dirt. I love our 3am phone calls (4 in the morning for you just because you thought of that silly Gwen Stefani song!). I miss everything about you. I love you so much, and it makes it hard to give my heart to someone else, but we both know what will happen if we got back together...World War 3, that's what.
So on that note, I'm leaving you all with some lyrics.

Everything We Had by The Academy Is...

You were the only face I'd ever known.
I was the light from the lamp on the floor,
and only as bright as you wanted me to be.
But I am no gentleman, I can be a prick,
and I do regret more than I admit.
You have been followed back to the same place
I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love, and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had
Is no longer there.

It was the only place I'd ever known.
Turned off the light on my way out the door.
I will be watching wherever you go,
through the eyes of a fly on the wall.
You have been followed back to the same place
I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had
Is no longer there, longer there.

Well, you saw for yourself, the way it played out.
For you, I am blinded.
For you, I am blinded, for you.

I am no gentleman, I can be a prick.
And I do regret more than I admit.
You have been followed back to the same place
I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love, and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
(you have been followed, you have been followed.)
everything we had, everything we had.
(you have been followed, you have been followed.)
Everything we had, everything we had,
(you have been followed, you have been followed.)
everything we had...

I'll be with you wherever you go,
through the eyes of a fly on the wall.